Feeling like a tuning fork
Saturday, January 31st, 2004After argue with my doctors I have cut back smoking marjunna because
they want to see how it has been affecting me, my ocd, and anixity.
Well I am here to say that I do not know the legal or offical postion
on OCD and THC, but since I startted to cut back my appitight(sp)has
disappeared, the cycle of OCD thoughts are harder to break and I am
still waiting to get in and see a VA shrink. It has been close to a
month now since I startted cutting back, and I am basically eating
one meal a day, back to smoking a pack of cigerettes a day, and
feeling nervous all the time. I am now more than ready to run
screaming into the night. I am strating to feel anti-social again
because I can not stand the engery of crowds again and the hypotcroces
(sp) of life.
I have been surfing the web looking for sites with info on OCD and
THC but so far I haven’t found much, most sites are for people loking
to get high(still wondering what a high feels like). One site in the
U.K. was talking about a spray that they where working on and the
possibility of doing clinic studies to see how it works.
Unfortunately here in the U.S.A. marijunna is still looked at as
having no medical benifits by our Federal Government, which means
that offically there can be no studies or medical test done with it.
It is easier for a pharmacidial company to get a new wonder drug
released than it is for that same company to do a study on THC.
Incase you are wondering if I just sit around with a joint in my hand
all the time. I don’t, the joint would last for a couple of hours
because I would only smoke enough to clam me down and then its back
to work/dealing with life.
Speaking of life its time for work,” I owe, I owe, So of too Work I
go.” “I have my fears but they do not have me. The deeper I go the
darker it gets.”
Tom