LOL hugs Mike and an explanation for last post.
Sunday, February 29th, 2004When I was 11 my parents started an expremely bad divorce.My mom
wanted me to hate my Dad.She had reasons to hate him and so did I,
but I could not hate him.However .. I was scared if I didn’t pretend
to that I would have no one.
My Dad teased me about being fat so at first I thought if I lost
weight Dad would come back .It quickly became my way to escape .It
was the only thing I could control .Then before I knew it … it was
controlling me .
Anorexia was not something anyone really knew about.At 63 pounds I
was put in hospital.They wanted to send me to a flipping university
to study .My mom said no .
anyway I had to find my own way to get better .I had no counseling .
I decided i had to get better the same way I got sick .I was so
afraid to eat .
The way I got better was to take one food off my “forbidden list ”
and eat it .
The first time I did this it was a chocolate chip cookie and I sat
and cried but ate it .
I threw out the scales also.
It took awhile .. not overnight but I didnt get sick overnight .
Today I don’t give a thought to calories and do not have any food
hang ups at all and I thank God to be free of that disease .
so ..I was concerned when my clothes seemed so much bigger .
In my case I think I simply forgot to eat .I’m alone most of the time
here and so didn’t have to have meals ready at a certain time .I
started making an effort to remember and it isn’t a problem now .
I learned alot the hard way .One thing I learned is the Spirit needs
nourishment as much or even more than the body and I wish everyone
could love themselves regardless of what a silly scale says, or of a
society that makes money off of peoples insecurities.
Try looking in the mirror and saying …
“I love you JUST as you are”……………………… God does.
Hugs all
Lesli