My 10 week report;pros:much improved state of mind,cons:reality hasn
I started on 10mg 10wks ago for depression & mild anxiety. After 2wks moved up
to 15mg, then 20mg after 4wks, & finally 30mg after 6wks. It’s taken 8wks to
really start working on my depression, & at 10wks my state of mind is much
improved, & my anxiety has all but been eliminated. The biggest complaint I can
make is that reality is still the same as before I started taking Lex. I still
have the same kind of time limitations that were there before to prevent me from
doing all the things I want to do in life. I desperately want to find a sweet
lady, settle down, start a family, buy a house, a couple of cars, & live happily
ever after. I wake up in the mornings after having these wonderful dreams of
meeting these incredible women & going through the joys of the courting process
& taking our time & really enjoying each step of getting to know each other. The
kicker is I see, know, & meet women like this at work all the time. The problem
is that I’m pursuing a career as a guitarist which because of the limitations of
time makes the idea of starting a family impossible w/o abandoning my first &
only true love which is playing the guitar at a high level of ability. Therefore
my priorities remain unchanged. I practice 5hrs before work, 4hrs after work,
sleep 3-4hrs, then do the same thing the next day. The diffference is w/Lex my
state of mind is much healthier, & I see life & all its different possibilities
as being an incredible & exciting thing, but I’m also frustrated beyond belief
at my limitations & not being able to experience all that life has to offer. All
in all I’m better off w/Lex than before & I’ll take all I can get out of life,
whatever that may be.