hopeless?-robert
dear Robert,
I just want to send you some gentle hugs if its ok
. i am rooting for you and that you find ways to get your needs met and
that you can find your way through to things getting on the upswing for
you. i saw your mention of chronic pain and that is one thing i know
about and have almost had to check myself in to psych ward for that
myself. i have even asked the ER to do so if they refuse to treat. i
don’t claim to know your exact situation cause I am not you .But I want
you to know i lost my common law husband to suicide and the thing is I
don’t think he realized HO much people loved him or in the end . when he
was doing heroin.,.,i think it got lost a but just HO much i loved him .
even though 13 years should say a lot . I am saying this to you because
I want to remind you that people may care much more than you realize .we
here obviously are ad we are not even face to face. But we know how hard
things can get so you are not alone.
The chronic pain is for sure a serious issue and you need to get proper
help for that and their are doctors who do pain management for people
known to have drug issues ( in case you were told they will not treat
you. do not LISTEN there are specialty doctors btu you have to commit to
not using and would be monitored close ..the trade off hopefully would
be actual ( legal ) reduction in pain.
I hop i am not speaking out of place as i got a partial account my mail
box of what is going on with you. i did read you went to hospital and
though i am very sure it was a nightmare ( I have not gone a few times
when maybe it would have been a good idea to go cause i am afraid they
will take even my RXd pain meds away ) anyhow I am really glad you went
eleven so cause your life is most important off all to save the rest will
follow ) i commend you cause that must have been such a hard thing for
you to do . I hep they let you stay home and go on your way to the job
meetings and the girl .
alison